Help Me Lord!

Crying for help! Have you been in this situation?

I have been in such for a couple of times in my life. And yes, there were times I cried. But the man that I am, I quickly try to compose myself and tell myself to stop. Yet deep inside, I know I am hurting, but I also know that there is nothing to gain by continuing to live in hurt.

I ask God for help. I continually pray the rosary, twice or thrice - sometimes four times a day - no kidding! I usually do it twice a day though - one for thanking God of all the blessings He has given me and my family, and second for some specific intentions I ask God.

Yet, there are really times when I don't get what I want - but in fairness, I usually do. But in these times that I feel my prayers aren't heard, I become disheartened and often question why God would subject me to this - sometimes I just don't feel I deserve this.

But then again, I have to trust God of His plans for me. It ain't easy to keep on praying when you feel nobody is listening. Just like recently, I stopped praying the rosary. But I guess, after posting this, I'll have to pray back.

God deserves more than just the petty feelings I have against His will. In the end, who am I to question His wisdom?